I Was a Gardener
November 20, 2019
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He saw me.
His Red Petals,
In tune with his Budding,
Took on the shape of my lips
As a python would take on an unsuspecting rabbit
In the heat of an afternoon sun:
Suddenly. Violently. Breathtakingly.
Whole.
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He liked me.
His Green Leaves
Embraced my fingers into his Soil,
Enmeshing them in it,
Absorbing the glow
Of the words my eyes dared to mutter
As I poured my watering can of delicacy
Into his devil’s food cake abyss.
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He loved me.
His affectionate fragrance
Infatuated the static that played in my brain,
Faded the tribal drumming in my ears,
And I sank ever so deeply,
Drowned ever so willingly,
Into his dreamy aroma.
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He loved me.
His Garden of elegant red that I watered
Was the Eden in which I so chose to plant my thoughts,
Dropping seeds of mind
One
Seed
At
A
Time.
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He loved…
The days withered into weeks,
Weeks into months,
Months into myself like a ticking time bomb in my chest
Waiting for the right time to let me know
It’d be all over.
I waited to hear the truths
Those tribal drums screamed so passionately
From behind his floral scented weighted blanket.
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He loved me not.
I watched my fingers collaborate with my palms,
Ignored the agony in my wrist
As I lifted the watering can for another session
With my unrequited lifeline.
Retched crackling in my crouched knees
Filled the void of noise surrounding us
As I nurtured thorns doused
In Misconception’ beautiful venom.
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He hated me so.
My hand stained the stems of my labor
With blood and silver moon beams,
With static and my own being.
I let it pour onto the garden of red,
And saw before me nothing but a pricked pool of mirrors
Smirking up at me with petulance.
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He would not love.
The soil that surrounded me rose,
Pulsating beneath my feet
As roots from my newfound foe swirled around below the
surface,
Rejoicing in cruelty as he witnessed me collapse,
Singing along to the karaoke of my demise,
Pushing me down the hill when I was falling to begin with.
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He could not love.
His bloodshot petals bore into me
Like a starving dog with bared teeth,
As his thorns pierce any last ounce of who I was,
Who I wanted to be.
Perhaps who I wanted to be was much too tall,
Much too bright,
And much too yellow of a flower
To satisfy this scarlet monstrosity.
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I hated him so.
Far away, I tore open a hole, deeper and deeper down it went.
Dug beyond the rocks and the sand and fossilized critters,
And planted my corpse in the soft, molded dirt.
I made a bed out of myself and sprouted,
My petals taking on the shape of my being.
I became a delicate savage,
An unapologetic band-aid
For my leafy hands
And my scathed mindset.
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I was a gardener.
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I am a gardener.
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But I garden only myself.
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He is a rose.
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And his petals take on the shape of the ground below me.
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As I snip him apart.
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